obsolete_theory

So...maybe I've been trying to bust out an unintended sequel to that magic sex thing that I wrote a while back.  And that sequel sprouted a plot. 

But how much is too much?

I swear, I really super wish I could tell when enough is enough. Because not only do I have a plot, I have alternate plots, and side plots. It's like I'm going to have pizza for dinner, right, except that pizza could be one of three different flavors, and maybe it's a calzone or it comes with garlic cheese sticks that seem like a good idea when you're hungry but then you fill up on breadsticks and you never end up getting the pizza.

That wasn't really an accurate analogy, but I think you get the point.

I'm struggling I guess because I'm editing the possibilities down, but they all seem like good ideas! I know I can't fit them all in without hurting the story as a whole. And even as I try to narrow it down, I get even more ideas, alternates of alternates. (Granted, I'm kind of pleased to have a concrete plot. I tend to either get a billion plot ideas for the same story or go into the story with no plot in mind at all and then struggle to think of what the characters will do.)

(Also, I clearly must be getting older cause it feels like I wrote the first story so recently, but it's been a year and change, hahahah. I always have things on the back burner, I guess. Must come from having a bunch of WIPs that I feel guilty about not finishing....yet.)

I'm going to go back to trying to hammer it out, and maybe, just maybe, flesh a little bit out.

~later

 I am on the hunt! Trying to jog my memory about an old Weiss fic that I probably havent read in 15 years lol, but it is bugging me to not remember which one it is. I remember just a snippet or two, something about Ran having really expensive reading glasses, and he and Yohji sharing a joint as Ran reveals all his SEKRIT TRAUMA at the hands of...Schuldig, maybe?

So um. Anywho. Gonna keep that on the back burner lol.

 So I finally have a couple days off from work, and it's like...I can't settle into doing anything creative for myself. Which is dumb on account of there are so many things I could do!!! I'll admit all this is at least partly prompted by me finishing watching Black Butler (season 1) and feeling crushed in a glorious way. I'm putting off diving into that fandom; I'm trying to decide whether or now I want to also read the manga or just go with the anime as 'good enough' of a grasp on the characters.

I get this horrible feeling somtimes that I'm moving further and further away from where I want to be, writing-wise. It's almost an out-of-body experience, or like I'm watching someone else do the writing. I used to feel so much more....a part of the whole process, if you know what I mean. I'd have an idea, lose myself in it, and come out the other side eventually. I'd feel very ME in process. But now it's like who is doing the work? Because it's uncomfortably not me. (Not that there's much wrting happening, hahahha.)

Also, I am having a massive failure to come up with anything like an original idea. I want to write things, but what? It's like...someday I'd like to do a big original work, but I have no characters and, even if I did, I never have a real clear grasp on plot. I'll have an inkling, maybe, and then it just goes poof and all of a sudden my characters are standing around in a kitchen for the rest of eternity. (I geniunely feel terrible about all the characters standing around, stuck in my WIPs, waiting for the sun to explode. They're real enough, at least when I think about them. They've got their own lives that I'm standing in the way of.)

I gave up sweets for lentt, but maybe I should have made myself do writing things instead. -_- 

~some other day

 So it has been absolutely yonks since I've been on here or posted or...you know, done anything that isn't strictly me working IRL.

But I had a thought last night, a fic-type thought, and like a loose tooth you can't help wiggling at, I worked on it. It's small, but it's something!

I am lazy, so here is the link to AO3!

Partial Shade to Full Sun

So you know that thing where you have a bunch of in progress (read: kind of stalled) projects, and then a new, shiny idea grabs you? But then you start to feel guilty about the other projects and the new, shiny idea gets bogged down by the weight of What Isn't Done Yet....yeah. That feeling, right there.

I was tootling around just a wee bit with more Saiyuki in Space, and then I was suddenly grabbed by Rozenkreuz in the future (not necessarily in space, but I'm pretty sure if there were a galaxy to be conquered from the shadows, they'd wanna do it.) And I want to do more of it, but I keep getting derailed by guilt and doubt and general self-confidence exhaustion.

I would really like to finish more things than I start, you know?


Also, fuckin' a would I like to have more natural talent with drawing. It'd be nice to be able to squeeze things out like that instead, once in a while, instead of trying to strangle words into the shape of the pictures I imagine in my head. (Seriously. When I do the thing, I end up with little cinematic clips that I then labor to translate into words, and I don't know if it's just me struggling extra, but it's hard, yo. I'm not saying it should be easy, but....a little less hard would be nice!)


Maybe sharing snippets is better than trying for a finished something? 

Oh Hippo,
where did you go?
First you were here
so cute and so near
your usb
was perfect for me
but now you're gone
and I can't write that I can't find you because gone rhymes with lawn...


Tragedy! I have lost my hippo-shaped usb which had all my fics-in-progress on it. I have an older backup, but all my new stuff is currently in the abyss! ;_; I will keep searching, but I just wanted to share the sadness. I should move on and show that hippo that no one misses it, but I'm feeling tragic and woe is me. XD

(On another, more positive and related note, I have had the inklings of an idea of a Saiyuki fic! Goku-centric, no less; he's not my go-to character, but I like what I've cooked up. Maybe I'll have something shareable later in the week!)

~later

I'm actively working towards the end of Other Fruits now.

It's the first time in a while that I've sat down to write, and it really hasn't gotten less intimidating. However, I really feel less bogged down by the things I've previously written or planned for this story. I did a re-read just to remind myself what, exactly, has happened in the story, and I was a little surprised by some of the moods I found there. (Surprised but pleased, really.)

I will admit to losing some bits and pieces that I'd already written. -_- Six USB drives and five computers while trying to snatch a few minutes at a keyboard has made some things disappear. You may be pleased to know that I did not lose the second truckers!saiyuki that I'd started.

Alas! The commute approacheth!

~later

RL's been doing me up the butt lately, and I haven't been doing much in the way of writing. I want to do stuff and things. I really, really do.

indelicateink, these ones are for you!

Thanks so much for hosting the Valentine's challenge--lots of fabulous ideas there!  (How did I end up twigging onto all your things as writeable?!?)

Here's my little box of assorted writing chocolates. They're discounted and slightly battered, but they're still made of deliciousness, I hope. (I didn't even make it to the love bits! There were love bits and romantic bits and sexy bits and everything, but I just...didn't get there. Sigh.)


Bonbon #1: Attorney!Sanzo wishes his secretary would stop flirting with his scummy clients.

( Attorneys, doing attorney things. )

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Bonbon #2 : Sci-fi Weiss; Omi keeps Nagi from crushing Neo-Tokyo with his amazing powers

( Neo-Tokyo is for suckers. )

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Bonbon #3: Yohji is expensive; Crawford despairs.

( Crawford's bank account must be phenomenal to support Yohji. )( In SPAAAACE! )

I'm not a big TV person these days: I don't follow a lot of shows, and I don't feel compelled to rewatch a lot either.

But! I love Korean historical dramas!

I'm watching "Jung-Yi, Goddess of Fire" right now, and it is fabulous! Drama! Costumes! Royal people to like! Royal people to despise! Intrigues galore! And little bits about Korean ceramics circa the 1500s. Plus, I instantly recognized the lead protagonist from another excellent drama as the headliner in this one. ('painter of the wind', anyone? ;) )

Every time I watch a show like this, it makes me want to learn the language, just so I can watch it without the subtitles. XD


Unrelated: I am (slowly) working on more trucker and hooker fic! Maybe I'll have something to tantalize you with in a few days?

~later

Life goes on, no? I truthfully haven't felt much like writing lately and, when I did, I couldn't convince myself that writing is more important than the fifty billion other things I have going on.

Case in point: I just spent every spare hour I had over the past five weeks working on a baby quilt for one of my best friends, who will be having a baby this December. Did I love the quilt? Yes. Did it makes a roomful of women ooh and ahh when it was unwrapped? Yes it did. However, it took me over forty hours just to piece together the top. I literally lost count of how long it took me to make the whole thing. (That'll teach me to try a fancy new-to-me pattern!)

All that being said, I'm itching to do...something. There's this story, see, one that I've been tinkering with all summer. Maybe it's time to share? Only... it's kind of not done, and I feel terrible posting WIPs because then the finishing gets so dragged out. But I kind of maybe need opinions about it?

Also, I am thinking about letting off steam with more trucker!Hakkai and hooker!Gojyo. Any takers?

~later